I thought this love would last

do you remember 
what we used to have?
you're what made me mine
you made my world real
you were a part of me
and now that you're gone 
that part of me is dead.
do you remember
the Indian summers?
your eyes were like the moon and stars.
do you remember
the visions and ambitions
the truth was so bitter
the roses so red upon 
your grave.
do you remember how
you used to read me poetry
underneath the trees?
do you remember?
did you really love me--
this shadow, this echo?
I fell back on you--I loved you.
do you remember the winters
with sugar snow and
ice fishing and
cozy evenings by the fire?
you understood my pain
you told me what was real
and what only pretended to be.
I guess I thought
you would be around forever.
I thought this 
love would last--
silly, foolish, giddy thoughts
why were you taken away?
why did you leave me here,
alone?
do you remember those last autumn days
when you'd make me laugh and
walk with me by the lake at sunset?
do you remember?




No names

When I hear your voice
When I see your face
When I see your smile
And think ofthe things you
so fervently believed in
The things you gave your life to,
I wipe my eyes and
smile at my foolishness.
I know I'm no Gene Siskel
but I do know that what you stood for was right.
Just by being you
you briefly changed the world.
Which is more than I can say of
certain others--
no names.





On John Lennon

left me dumb
breathless
a spectator
reeling
in shock 
dumbstruck
and vulnerable--
never been confronted
with such
living, knowing,
breathing, having,
wanting, needing, 
beautiful life. 
Which is strange,
coming from a 
dead man.





Aimless wanderings

We're a living life
A burning flame
Looking out through
someone else's eyes
Seeing the world through
mellow-colored glasses
A waking dream
and falling asleep.
Whisper softly 
laugh loudly
Live to live
not to love 
or to hate.
Feelings only 
complicate matters--
make them difficult and 
troublesome...
Not worth it. 
To me, anyway.
You don't matter anymore 
in my world.





Good-bye

I guess it's time
to let you go 
I shouldn't cry 
or feel upset
or act like a child
I'm old enough
to be by myself
to be alone
but I can't 
help 
it