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Lonelieness

I close my eyes and the world goes cold,
Every word suddenly dies,
All that's left is the cries of loneliness.

Like an evil monster out of the dark,
Loneliness swears to claim each one of us,
Grasping all it can till no one is left.

Now I feel it is lurking near me... following me,
Waiting for me to let down my guard... so it can swallow me up to.

Yet I go on fighting against it,
But how much longer can I fight this monster?
When will loneliness catch me in its grasp?

How can I make it without you?
How will I make it with out you here to protect me?

When will you be my night in shinning armor?
When will you save me from this ... monster?

When I reach for your hand you run away,
Why...have I not loved you enough?
Have I done something wrong?

Now as I hold on to my last light of hope,
You leave my to die in my loneliness,
You leave the monster to claim me to.

Don't you need me in your life?
Don't you want me beside you?
Wont you love me for eternity?

Oh, love now as I let my guard down and stop fighting,
You run back to save me.
And bring back the feeling of love I have toward you,
But, only to leave me again with my struggle against the loneliness,
To fight the lonely war against loneliness... alone.

Now as I think things through I realize that you are my monster,
You are my enemy I fight against,
You are my loneliness.

Thuy Do (97)

NightMare

Dreams are the hopes that carry our selves through hard times.
Dreams are desires that we all long to come true.
Dreams are what make us believe in love and true happiness.
But, is this really true?
Are dreams always what they seem?
Is there a darker side of what we call dreams?
If you dream too much and expect the impossible, are dreams still what 
we assume them to be?
Are dreams really the magnificent illusion that we create them to be?
Are they not the childhood fairy tale gone bad?
A beautiful reflection in a mirror turned into a monster.
Please tell me why?
Why have all my dreams gone bad?
Why have the things I fear most come to haunt me in my most naked time?
The time when there is no light to guide me?
The time when I 'm sleeping and cant run away.
When your arms aren't there to shelter me from the nightmares,
Shelter me from the good dreams turned to bad.
Are dreams really what they seem to be?
Thuy Do (97)

Things You'll Never Know

Why do I do the things?
Why do I say the things I say?
Why cant I just be me in front of you?
Why do I even try to lie?
Why am I so afraid that I must hide...?
The real me inside?

What is it that you do that makes me feel?
What I have never felt before?
Love, compassion, joy, and hope?
 
Why are you there when I close my eyes?
Why do you haunt me in my dreams?
Why do I care about you so?
 Why will you never know?

Because, you would never love me.
Never care for the person I hide inside.
You always see the fake me.
 The one who is brave and strong and fears nothing.

But, I am afraid I am weak and I fear everything especially losing you.
That's why you will never know the real me.
That's why you will never see...all the love I hide inside to you in me.

Thuy Do (97)

Why Does It Seem?

Why does it seem everything I do is wrong?
Why does it seem that I'm getting weak and your getting strong?
Why does it seem that you are fading away?
Why does it seem you don't want to stay?
Why does it seem the questions never end?
Why does it seem you are no longer my love my friend?
Thuy Lynh
02-20-98

What Have I Done?

You have so many hopes so many dreams,
But yet it seems... you feel nothing has become of them.

You whisper in my ear how I am one of your dreams 
How I am your angel in the light,
 Guiding you through the nightmares.
How I am the beautiful rose that inspires you,
And never wilts.

But when we fight you say how you have nothing,
 How your dreams are such a waste,

Am I a waste too?
Have I not loved you faithfully?

At night when you sleep,
Is it still me you long to hold?
Is it still me that guides you through the nightmares?
Am I still the everlasting flower?
Your eternal love?

Have your hopes and dreams changed?
Is there some one else that replaces me at night?
How can I be sure that you still love me?
How can I be sure you still want me?

Lately everything seems to be a blur in our relationship,
Nothing is how it was.
Why?

Have I done something to turn you love away from me?
Have I made an awful mistake?
Please don't leave me in this mess,
If something has gone wrong let's work it out,
Don't leave me to cry at my bedside,
Don't leave me with no arms to comfort the pain that will come.

Help me stop it before it starts,
The tears, 
The pain,
The everlasting scar on my soul.

Can't you see how much I love you?
If you can, why do I feel so lost?
 Why are there so many questions left unanswered?

What happened to us?
What have I done?

Thuy Do (97)