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i saw my reflection,
but instead of looking at myself,
i was looking you,
all the while i had been feeding
you lines full of lies,
now seeing the effect they're
having on you, i site down and cry
and say i'm sorry, but sorry is never
enough...

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Untitled #2

i fall back into my deep black hole
of nothingness and sink into the endless
hours of sadness, you've done something to me,
and i don't know why, i could have loved you,
but we'll never know now...

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Untitled #3

sometimes holding something back
is the best thing you could ever do,
but i can't help but notice the more i hold back,
the more they don't notice that i'm lying all the time...

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i never thought it would end this way,
but the noose is around my neck and the note in my hand;
tears to go along with it, all the while hoping somebody
will come and stop me, but now it's too late...

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?

sun shines, sun dies,
in bloom, fading slow,
growing tall, in a corner of a room,
lurking in on you, picking my
time to move, slice your face
in two, cry all night, then
i die, the story of my life.

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I don't know

just tell me what's been going down-
why run from me- my otherside-
saw you just the other day-
you looked so sad-why keep
it locked inside-why don't you
just tell me?-

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wrong

i always thought you'd be the
one, but instead you turned
out to be just like the rest
of them. I should have known,
how could i have made the same
mistake twice? Never again,
but never is a promise and i
shouldn't lie...

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not knowing

i want to keep you close to me,
don't want you to run a stray,
i want to talk and share
dreams with you, but it always
seems when i want more, you want
less, why is that?

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all for you

if "i'm sorry" would change your mind,
i'd say it a hundred times, We never
know just what tomorrow brings,
i'm only hoping that it's you, i send my smile
over to you, but get nothing in return,
i was foolish to laugh, but even more
foolish to do it in front of your face,
but my laughter was not what it seemed,
it was only showing my insecurities,
i like you, isn't that what counts?
i always thought it did....