Love (lies) She's self absorbed (to be cool) And self ignored (a cool fool). She simple minded (in the eyes) And lowly guided (to her surprise). She has everything in the world (nothing at all) But never has enough to start Her dreams made of glass (popularity) That shatter in her heart. She says I'm the best (of the worst) And she's been needing a friend (to use). She says I'm the perfect man (better off dead) And have lots of good thoughts (that should stay in my head). She says she cares (that's a lie). She says she understands (but doesn't know why). She gives me looks (to play with my mind). She talks about love (to make me cry). I ignore her lies (they might be the truth) And I count her smiles (because they are few). I give her choices (she never makes) And I let her know I love her (so the friendship breaks). Suicidal Paradise As the blood drips down Into the white bowl sink, I stand so still And slowly blink. My lips become numb, My head becomes light... And as I begin to loose my sight The blue flies sworm in my eyes And eat me alive...... Falling to the floor, I reach for the door. But my body falls like it's made of water And my stomach turns like it's getting hotter. I lie on my back Like I am paralized And slowly slip Into paradise........ Turn Me Down She knows the answers But spreads the lies. She tells me she cares She tells me she cries. She gives me chances Then takes them away. She tells me, more or less, Things she shouldn't say. She gives me ideas Then tells me to forget them. She lets me flatter her neatly Then ignores me completely. I tell her about life And how things are going. Then she tells me to fuck myself Without even knowing. She can't help but say, "Yes" When she really means, "No." She turns me down But doesn't tell me so. Worthlessly Priceless If only I were like you, I could bring people to their knees. I could kill with a wish And shatter dreams... And when that strange thing called age Pops up and up and puts you in a cage, Don't scream like you never had a chance, I was their all along, you just never took a glance.... If only I were like you, I could lie and not care. I could confuse and scare I could drive you crazy until you were there. Despite where you want to go I've been there to already know. That technique is all in the mind And words are easy things to leave behind... If only I where like you, I could be worthlessly priceless. I could use friends like money intended to spend, I could break hands when I need one to lend... Everyone says she's not worth the time How can I blame them when she isn't mine. All bitterly strange and cold like a rock It's no wonder I have a hard time trying to talk... Reliant Your picture in my hand I stare at the ground. I can't stop crying And don't want to look around. Put your picture Right next to the phone. A frozen smile Never coming home... Just a moment in time When I couldn't see. Just a moment in time Standing next to me... Such strangers We have grown. Both lonely friends left each other alone. Out of my life Like up without down And into my mind As I stare at the ground... Just a moment in time When I couldn't see. Just a moment in time Standing next to me.... Machine All day and night I stayed out of sight I stood staring at walls Talking to myself, Talking about nothing at all..... All day and night My mind was a blur... A snowy screen An answering machine... Leave a message... I'll get back soon.... All day and night I walked around dead I made clouds of stars Then closed my eyes And visited mars.... All day and night I kept tearing my self to pieces I learned to forget regret Every time I said I loved you.... All day and night It seemed like forever Throwing myself round in circles Some days were nights, Some nights were days... Troubled words from a troubled girl... I don't understand... What keeps wearing me out..... Imperfection We whisper words To poison our minds And speak our thoughts... ...Usually lies... We destroy each other To make more money Like bee stings taken For only drops of honey. We fear time Because it kills us all. But walk side by side with death Like a friend in the mall. We waste our lives On the simplest things. And let go of our dreams To wear wedding rings. We ridicule honesty And say things we don't mean. We play with curiosity To keep our souls unclean. And when we look in the mirror With hopes to find perfection All we ever seem to see Is our own sad reflection. Fade Of Void He runs around town Showing off his crown And burns out in a flash Like paper turned to ash. He draws tears from us all But never harms a thing. He spins his head in circles And fears words that sting. He chases after wishes But they never coma true. He is dedicated to loneliness And is always thinking of you. He hides behind smiles And crys in his dreams. He hates the way he feels Because he has become me... Death And Agony The held-in pain of agony Turns into insanity... Everything inside changes, And we become ourselves... The sacrifice forms hate, Changes to laws of fate, Lives turn to ashes As second-rate gods just hesitate. The inheritance of pain Lies in your brain.... You fear the night As thousands die, And think about life As death creeps across the sky. Heaven crashes to hell, Genocide will forever last. Rivers of blood Begin to flood And life becomes known as the past... Once Again Say good-bye To all my feelings. Stripped away By empty evenings... All your words I can't hear clearly. And all your thoughts Make me so dreary... The disappointment Had disappeared, And all my beliefs Had turned to fears... Fade away In a mist of hate. Like a sub-conscious mind In a consciousness state. Once again I feel alone... The bitterest love, All my own.....