YOUR WORLD In your world, I'm a small shrub In a forest of hundreds In your world, I'm the petal That fell from the flower and blew away In your world, I'm that one hair That you missed while shaving In your world, I'm the flashlight The one that seems to have lost its bulb In your world, I'm nothing The one who's gone In your world, I'm not there- I'm not important anyways In your world, it doesn't matter- I'll die eventually, you know In your world, who cares? I'll go insane before you know it In your world Life's so easy In your world I wish I were there In your world. MY DEATH I welcome Death with open arms As he arrives at my door I kiss Death on the cheek But Death then asks for more I lead Death to my room And lay him on my bed As Death and I form ecstasy My eyes once blue become bood red Death and I lay silently There was nothing one could do For Death, he took me as his own As I'd asked him to. MY HEART What's the problem? It has to be me My unexplainable silence Must have made you see I have nothing to love Nothing for which to live I cannot even thank you For the love you tried to give My heart is more than empty It was drained so long ago If I just knew how to fill it I'd make it overflow. BLOND BONE OBSESSION He counted her ribs From across the room The anorexic teenager Held up her head in pride She hadn't eaten in days Hadn't been healthy for months But that was what she wanted She liked the way she looked In that long, tall mirror The one they made her gaze into For hours upon end To show her she'd get sick Of looking at such a revolting sight And slowly her pride diminished She soon began to cry The ugliness of what she'd become Had finally gotten to her He comforted her gently As any doctor would do Soon her tears subsided And she started life again For the fourth time Since she'd bleached her hair Society should be ashamed Making teenage girls think that They're only pretty if they're Super-skinny or a fake blond That's disgusting What a world. STEAK I'm there to hurt I'm perfect to beat I was made to bash I'm yours to keep You call me names You scar my skin You make me give up You know I'll let you win. BEAUTIFUL The blood drips from the knife She stops to lick her wounds The devil watches from the trees She gazes at the moon The knife falls to the ground She turns to face the trees The mutilation is complete She collapses to her knees. THE WHORE The wounds are stinging She grimaces at the pain The girl puts her head in her hands And lets the tears fall like rain The confusion is overwhelming She has no where to turn But the girl knows she deserved it She needed to have learned. HAPPY You dream of killing You dream of sex They always wonder Who you'll take next The pretty ones must die After they've been raped Their horrific screams Have been caught on tape You cut off their fingers So delicate and light This is just another Of your S&M delights. GO TO YOUR ROOM You say you're empty, so lost without me- I warned you. You say you miss me, to come back to you please- I warned you. You knew I'd hurt you, tear you down brutally- I warned you. You thought I'd change, but you see- I warned you. I'M NOT WORTH IT You don't know how I feel Because to feel isn't me Maybe time will heal But is that really what you see? We cling to what's left And hope we'll make it But it's such a huge mess We might as well fake it The excitement is gone Perhaps we should have stayed "just friends" We could have held on But I think this is the end. INCUBUS I felt him slip Under my bed As mom turned on the Lights she said, "There's nothing to see, There's not much to tell. There's no demons here, They're all in Hell." She left me alone She turned off my light The demon wants me I'm just the right height. CUT! TAKE 4! Razor in my heart Razor in my leg Didn't know they were there Hadn't noticed them for days Wanted my own life Wanted to get things done But then you went and killed me I hope to hell you had fun. STICKS AND STONES Tear this limb From upon my hip As you pull I hear a rip I'm being torn To pieces to eat I'm not even dead yet And I'm turning into meat I'm losing more blood My hands are on fire I died there that day But then I'm a huge liar. RUINED Slip away Further than ever before Slip away Don't wanna live anymore Slip away Into a world of fantasy Slip away The drugs are becoming me Slip away And no one will even care Slip away Life is more than I can bear. NOTHINGNESS I am pathetic I'm a whore I am dead My life's no more You drained my soul My body's your floor You have my mind But I don't care anymore. WORKING ON IT You cried yourself to sleep I laughed, watching you weep You say I hurt you so horribly I'm such a bitch, as you can see You cut yourself tonight I laughed, but it wasn't right I actually felt some compassion I'm not quite as inhuman as I had been. FORGOTTEN I tried but it's gone My mind has it all wrong I try to make things make sense But I don't know where it all went No one can even see This small mind isn't me Emptiness is taking me over Confusion doesn't make you bolder Nothing is right here The end is comming near I have nothing to give I've forgotten how to live.